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I grew up with many emotional challenges. At the age of 6, my parents got divorced, and it really impacted me (as the first 7 years of life create much of our subconscious and attachments). I can remember how brilliant I was with an extremely high intuition and an exorbitant amount of energy to experience life. I was highly creative, energetic, and emotional, but very unregulated which was no bueno for school. In fact, I had a really hard time in school and friendships. I spent most afternoons out in the hall for talking and being a disruption to the class with most of the teacher conferences reporting my poor behavior and lack of control with my mouth. Interestingly, the more attention I got for it, the more it fueled my zest for defying authority because.. then I could at least get some recognition and attention (right)? Sadly, it fueled much of my insecurities and lack of self-esteem as I grew into elementary school, middle school, and high-school. I couldn't figure out why I felt so angry and sad. Deep down, I desired to be seen, recognized, and nurtured. As I grew older and into college I started seeking out adult mentors to help me. I attribute much of my self-awareness and attitude shift because of their kind, compassionate approach to learning (as well as the opposite type of leaders I experienced.) My curiosity and quest for knowledge was also what fueled my desire to get my MA in leadership and get into the online coaching space in 2017. In fact, my very first programs were coaching women on confidence, food and exercise, and health habits. The more women I coached, the more I found the common thread that most of us were craving and deeply grieving: to be loved for who we are (authenticity!!). As I helped more women alongside my self-healing journey, I got burnt out because of the grief that was circulating within and without. It felt like the more I helped other women in their freedom and self-esteem, the more I grieved my own self-esteem and my innocence. All the while, it was the healing I needed to face myself and further my self-love. In January of 2020, after a full year of committing to my healing with different therapies, coaches, and wellness modalities for my TBI and autoimmunity, I woke up with a deep-seeded knowing that I was it. I was convinced that t hat no matter what insecurities, imperfections, or trials I endured, I was whole and complete by simply existing -- t hat my natural, authentic expression (wild) was everything I needed to experience life to it's fullest (wealth). Alike the trees, wind, and mountains, there is nothing that one must teach the wild to be what it is. It just does what it's supposed to, which is why it creates, receives and experiences everything it's supposed to, too. Wild Wealth® was and is not only my deepest wound, but it represents my most free and authentic expression. As we gain the courage to unravel the gene sis of who we are, we may find that it not only frees us from our childhood but bonds us to it. It is the natural progression of health and wellbeing through childhood development, maturation, and leadership. Wild! **No pun intended. PS... I dare you to go pull out a picture of yourself as a child and NOT feel enamored by love and adoration for her/him. In reflection on much of my journey, I want to point out a few concepts that are important to understand for my, your, our leadership evolution. Do the work. And do it now. The more we suppress the child within (our subconscious) the more we delay what's meant for us: Wealth. A meaningful life. As the Law of Thermodynamics states: Energy is not created nor destroyed, it's transferred. So those emotions you don't want to feel? Well.. they're coming back (karma), and will manifest in some other way. Thank you Law of Vibration. In reflection : As a child, I was looking for was for someone to help me understand my energy and where to put it. Did I have attitude issues? Of course, but the truth was.. standard disciplining only created shame. What I was seeking was magic, adventure, creativity, and fun. I needed help channeling that energy into something greater. Adults were only triggered by my pure positive energy because THEY hadn't done the work. 2. Our level of self-awareness (how well we know ourselves) is equal to our amount of success (fulfillment, self-actualization)! In reflection : My inner expression was shunted/suppressed, despite trying to find ways to let it out. Secondly, it disconnected me from my intuition. Because I was so confused on how I was feeling, and misplacing the energy (my authentic expression, potential), I felt depressed. I felt sad, angry, and insecure, and when it came time to express those emotions, I was isolated and met without the help to process them. I had no self-awareness nor regulation. Again.. karma. The very emotions my parents didn't face came back around to bite them in the ass through their own daughter. What feels more potent now is knowing this so I can stop the cycle. Because I am aware of the emotions that it creates, I can reSPOND instead of reACTING to create a new cycle: one of freedom, power, and love. By knowing who i am, I know what I want to create, I am willing to do the work based on the universe yielding me the right things (aka manifesting with ease* which is really just called being mature..which si the natural state of consciousness in life so don't create something that it's not lol), which I will know because I now follow my intuition, I feel like all of it is just listening to life. That's all that it is. Lastly, your subconscious and unconscious.. always win. So.. feel your emotions, move the body: face the truth, heal your past, create your success. Wild Wealth®.

Growth: Some glorify it, while others despise it. It's the deep well of sorrow, joy, pain, anger, resolve, excitement, and all the plethora of other emotions plunged into it. It's alarming how by nature, nobody can stop the biological, innate, and spiritual cycle that must occur. How can something so natural be so ungodly painful, yet blissful at the same time? How can something feel so out of control, yet it's the very control we gain when we surrender to it? I've wrestled and been obsessed with "change" for as long as I can remember, but it was rocket-fueled in 2020 sitting in my Change Management class when I was assigned to read John Kotter's (1996) Deep Change . I genuinely.. completely.. philosophically became enamored with change-- obsessing over how it happens, why it happens, how to STOP it from happening, what it feels like, how to create more of it, why some do why some don't, etc. I've felt like the little kid who tugs on your pant-leg and asks you 'why' a thousand times to a question you simply do not know! Despite my challenging relationship with change, the single truth I have discovered in my short 30 years here on earth is that I am here to change. No matter how hard we resist it, it will manifest itself in a variety of ways. There is a reason why we don't have the same skin at 90 as we do at 9. This is the constant death and resurrection we must be willing to undergo. It is the truth of our humanity, (humus) meaning one with the earth. We are truly of the dirt and soil - from ashes to ashes. The irony in all of this is that the very reason I first became enamored with change was because I wanted others to do it. When that wasn't working (lol), I took it upon myself to discover why, as I mentioned, which lead me to the how (the un-fun part). It also lead me to my entire career as a coach in helping others' accept and create change in their lives. We always already know what needs changing, but sometimes we just need a little extra support.